I TOOK A NAP TODAY AND NOW I’M ALL MESSED UP AND KINDA WIDE AWAKE, BUT ALSO NOT FEELING TOTALLY ALERT AND WE WATCHED WILLOW WITH SYLVIA TONIGHT AND RAWR VAL, RAWR, AND ALSO I LOVE THAT MOVIE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY NERD SOUL.
Right now, at this very moment, I can say this is the best I have looked and felt in my entire life. At almost 50.
That’s something I’ve been wanting to say for a while but wasn’t sure how to say it.
I look great. I feel awesome. I’m happy, secure and looking forward to kicking life’s ass until it’s over.
Fuck anyone who thinks 50 is old and shriveled.
To all the young people out there who are afraid of getting older: Don’t fear it. Face it head on. Life gets better as you get older. The confidence you lack as a young adult will come as you move on in life, gain experience, make mistakes and learn from them and come to know who you are and what you can do. That just doesn’t happen at 20 or 25 or even 30 for some people. It only comes when you are able to look at your life through a rear-view mirror and wave off whatever crap is behind you. But you have to live through that shit first. It’s what makes you a whole, rounded person later. You’ll learn to love your own flaws, you will learn to own your mistakes, you will learn to love yourself. Life is a process. When you get that process down - and it won’t happen until you’re about 40 - that’s when you start enjoying the hell out of being alive.
The best is yet to come. Don’t let anyone make you think that getting older is flaw. It’s a god damn feature.
I turn 40 in April. I’m working hard to make this my motto.